Kinda happy n sad.. inside, everything is plan for u.. but now, i have to start planning my own future..
today i do radio. boring last day.. fuk up. i wanted do ground but they don wan to change. they say plan do already, don change.. troublesome. excuses la. inside do nth whole day. waste my last day. not memoriable at all. well, i plan my speech in there la. don waste time. so many thoughts to say n i finally pick 1. back to "home" when sir ask me to give a speech to them. my mind gone blank. i can't say anything. lucky its quite dim over there. i can feel my blood rushing to my head. my face must be damn red then.. no one can see it.. haha. my speech become a full length of spacebar. nothing came out at all. i just say sorry. cozs of my case making them suffer now? ya take care guys.
o ya jh n hf come to celebrate my release from hell. ahaha. jh order canadian pizza. haiwaiian n cheesy? i ate 2 slice. quite little for so many of us(alphaians). n they started SPLASHING water, throwing water bomb ard. all of us kana. FIGHT BACK. some use GRAPE n COKE to splash back. i splash a cup of grape at hf n miss! omg i must be a lousy aimer. all at the wall! ahha too bad. u guys got to clean it up.
some photos of our small family.
yeah n we r the background heroes of singapore.
ok back to the story of her. ya i didn't get to talk to her in msn today. she must be busy n tired. ya + im nothing to her. she got tat one in her mind. im just a item in a shop, shes a window shopping lady. just passing by. i, only hope to be bought.
i wonder now if i clear leave, will i be able to talk to her more often? or maybe i got more time to try stop thinking. yeah rite. well she don even know im interested in her. nv will i let her know. knowing where i stand, the place she wan the other part to stand its totally different. worlds apart. nvm. i will start to learn some chef stuff soon. hope she will be the first to taste it. ppl say food can buy a guy. but i don think food can buy a lady heart. maybe its time to light a cigarette hoping it will stop some sadness if possible. well its just life. life of misery.
ya hahaa. mich. if u ever move in to condo, can i be ur housemate? ahhah. suddenly thought of moving out. seeing many of my frens at overseas with roommates or housemate seems fun. don mind? just a request. hahaha.
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