point form

wat i done today :

-went to base
-take dekit form for dekitting when official ord
-talk to teammates
-play basketball with them til 6+
-score alot today(haha)
-had long john with rdy n klm
-home

lazy to blog le. this blog will be more boring very soon.
i think she know something abt it... i think i too obvious? lets keep it low.
doesn't matter too if she know. from the way she talk to me. i got no chance.

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actually i forgotten wat my cousy said yesterday.
he told us wat he said to the girl, oMG, is this a philosphy lesson? hes damn gd in talking.
he told us he don know how to swt talk, but in the other hand.. the way he talk is much better than swt talk.

well hes caught up in a triangle.. the girl also don know wat to do.. btw its abt 2 guy n a girl..
indecisive girl can kill 2 man.. whole day with him, can see tat hes damn bothered abt the prob. we were supposed to go for a midnite movie at 1.15am.. we separated at ard 9.30pm n he went to find tat girl. while my bro n i went to our granny house first.. met him at 12.30am... we decided not to watch movie.. i guess hes not in the mood. so we suggested my block void deck since he sending us home too. when reached, he called the girl for less than a min n hang up. not long later the girl call again... my bro i just waited a the void deck while my cousy wandering ard with the phone. waited for 1 hr... BORED! HUNGRY! order mac~~ mac came after 30 mins, we ate within 20 mins, HES still on the phone... he looked agressive....

so we total waited for ard 2 hrs ++. n he finally hang it.... i think hes kinda lost... hes tired of doing anything.. keep asking us for direction... wt to do.. wat can he do. wat she might be thinking. n shes a leo so is my bro. donoe y they can talk abt leo then ask more abt it.. is horoscope important in relationship? maybe... got a personal experience.. talk talk blah blah. 2 hrs.. go home...

actually he told us alot abt his conversation.. hes damn gd in talking. how i wish i got half of his... serious.. from young, he is my target, someone im always compared to.. but i do admire him.. his life seems smooth.. totally diff from mine. end of story..

well abt my dream the day be4.. i seriously hope dream comes true. but its kinda impossible.. i don think theres anything abt me she will like.. n for wat i know abt the kind of guy she like. didn't even talk these few days. im out of the topic! damn it. any plastic surgery to change my face? any ToTo number tat will open in future? any gd things can happen to me? NO...
tats my life.. i can only dream...

Dream

27th may 2008

I HAD A DREAM! i met this wonderful girl. she look just like someone I know!!! or shld i say don't know.hah. still remember it clearly the situation. she was waiting for me, and the scene only got 1 person which was her. i walk towards her. blahblah i don't remember wat she said, or i can't hear it. silent. her lips move. the nxt thing i did was put my shoulder over her n walk away! damn! shes my girlfriend! n i woke up. fuk.

i can remember exactly the face! someone i known of.
o ya she was wearing a beach colored dress.
if dream can repeat, i wish i nv woke up.
if love must set a time limit. i will set it 10000 yrs.
anyway in real life, i don think i will be the cup of tea for her :( .


tired. got home at 5.30am. after long talk with cousy. will post later abt wat happen today.
how i wish i could really her. + dream comes true....

badminton

rainy afternoon woke me up. lol. disturb my slp.
met zm pf wh hy at 5 pm today. for a badmindton game! yeah tats wat we do frequently last time. n i mean when we werea ard 13yrs old? or is it younger... its been awhile since we last played.. all ppl busy with their life.. is this wat we called adulthood?

yeah i can see tat im getting older? just after an hour of game n i was feeling rather tired. lol.
pf n wh went back for a bath n we went to zm house first. then met back at ard 9.15pm. they went to buy food while i sit in the van. lazy to walk. he nv on the engine! damn. freaking stuffy in the car so i just waited outside. back after ard 25 mins n we set off to PUNGGOL!

we walked to the location where we went to last wk but its occupied. so we went further n settled down for a nite time picnic. aha. eat alot. talk alot. n yeah! we took alot photos. wh brought his Canon SLR camera, a fuking gd cam. n he can even do the setting tat when we shine our light n draw something. the cam actually can take the shots! the photo will show the pic or words we "drew". damn nice. so we drew our name n i did some spoilers when they drawing theirs. haha.

back home at 1am+. talk abit to mich n play some game.. she seems stress? or is she not? haha. nvm. shes busy. so i just play my game.

OK the end of another Non exciting n boring day for me~ ciao. SHALL POST THE PHOTOS WHEN I GOT IT.

Last Day In A

20th May 2008 Tuesday
Woke up at 10am. YES TODAY IM having EXTRA duty at A. met up with kch at 11am at Sk.
went to MDIS to have our lunch. jh, bird and nas also joining us~ it was damn pack during 12+, i think the students having lunch break too. but bird still suggest we go there for lunch, he said if its pack, THEN SQUEEZE WITH THEM. old pervert.


changed into my special blue uniform. my team today is so strong! amir, jh, me, and 1 more junoir. all the power ppl inside haha. i requested to do with them tho, haha, it don't even feel like extra duty. it seems like normal shift. like last time be4 team reshufflement. every place we go to, we do wat we needed to do. NO TIME FOR SLACK. during our lunch + dinner break, jh went to toilet, follow by amir. so long tat i notice something was wrong. but i don bother much.






back to my 2nd home, i returned everything tat was issue to me n went back to locker.
while im changing back to my shirt. jh called, he said kch told me not to go back first, thers thing i need to sign. i KNEW somthing was amiss but i waited anyway. i went to find pc first n talk to him. hes my buddy, but we splited to diff team. he got some prob with the upper management tho. too bad i can't do anything. jh keep rushing me back to my locker.. so i bid farewell to pc n went back. they off the lights in my locker! in my room theres too many sound. kinda scare they will sabo me.. open the door, laying on the table were 2 PIZZA. LOL. PIZZA AGAin. these time the ppl tat celebrated with me were those tat didn't came for the previous 1. took some photo and soon, the hazing begin! they threw water bomb at me, use water gun shoot mE! damn it. retaliation! i took the 7up bottle, SHAKE IT WELL n splash at jh! whole room was dirty but nvm tat. we ate the pizza anyway, with special tap water addon..











true Alphaians


time to go home. separated during our way home.
when reached sk, kch n i walk diff way. while walking home, i listen to 1 song, don know y. the music is damn nice for the situation. altho the meaning don really suit, the music is nice. Joanna Wang - Best Mistake I've Ever Made. i started thinking of the past in the team. swt, sorrow, fun.. well all will be my memories.
im gonna miss them.. until then..

ANYONE wan to learn DIVING? I NEED COMPANION~ SADED. IM SO LONELY.

ANYONE wan to learn DIVING? I NEED COMPANION~ SADED. IM SO LONELY.

met them at 5.30pm at katong. Aiston? smething like tat lol. had some western food. i ordered crispy fired chicken. its just some fish n chips with onion rings n fries.
o ya its so called to celebrate belated birthday for peter.

went to parkway parade to play pool~ damn funny~ pool is boring. its the joke we make there, the mistake they hit the pool ball, craps make it fun.

went to buy Joanna Wang Disc. $18.95! damn it. so ex. long time nv buy Original Cd liao. but the songs r quite nice..

LOL found some pic in my com.. these were taken when we went to jjb house to paint his room! 2005! we actually don know how to fold he hat. so this was how peta folded it. ahhaha.







too boring til paint on their own body!

no more rock songs.

ya as u can. i decided to stop listening to eng rock songs. tats it! slow song is better. some hidden meaning haha.

my cousin say my english sucks after reading my blog. damn her. but i do agree. well i nv really care abt wat i type. vocab? grammar? i don care anymore~ as long as i understand wat i post can le.

yeah i do have some AP. hoho. watever.

well too boring tat i broke my own minesweeper record again.



nice day. boring day.

Saturday's Blue

woke up with hope! today is saturday! can play bball! sms~ "paiseh today no bball" FUCK. damn it. fuking another boring day!

saw pf online. my childhood fren for 23 yrs!. talk to her awhile abt some stuff. then i thought of asking the grp out for a meal. long time nv see them. she also have the same thought. she suggested prata.

met them at 8+pm. we went to Ice Cream Chef at siglap first. lol. the place is cosy but full house. damn it. we bought some ice cream n went off. the ice cream there is kinda diff. they made the ice cream themselves if im not wrong. n u can add topings for it. each toping is 70¢. got a wide range of topping u can add. kinder breuno , orea, nuts, koko crunch, m&m, raisin n many more. price is $3.10 for regular size n $4.80 for large. as in double scoop. if im not wrong abt the price. u can choose to smash all the toppings into ur ice cream or not. i smash mine anyway. Peanut Butter & strawberry ice cream with kinder breuno n oreo. kinda weird but new. i think my combination of ice cream is kinda weird. hahaah. the "chef" look at double check my choice n look at me, check again n ask me. " u wan to mix the ice cream together?" i not really sure abt it. but must be weird haha. n i reply "YES". so she did it anyway. she asked if i wan any chocolate sauce? n "yes of cozs!" my frens nv got it. i think she interested in me. well. tats bullshit hhaa.

had our ice cream at the bus stop. hehe. funny huh. mine is not bad but the peanut taste too strong. after tat we went to Simpang Bedok for supper. we order damn lot. eat till FULL, real full. 2 set Chicken wing set. 1 murtabak . 1 Roti John. 1 Banana Prata, Cheese n Egg Prata, Prata bomb with cheese. 1 small stingray. Half Chicken with rice. LOL My bro got conned . he thought is half spring chicken . instead came a HALF full grown chicken. haha. no wonder the A neh ask how many rice we want.

after the supper we went to zm place. he change pants n drive us back. normally our last destination will be playground. hehe. yeah we r kids! but today i suggested the 1 near my house. while on the way, my bro suggested go Punggol End. so we did so. went there n slack. chat. zm got something on nxt day morning(cycling), so we left at ard 1 am.

well i thought today will be damn boring. lucky i still have my dears tat i can count on! HAHA. until nxt wk, i shall meet them again for badminton game! i will thrash u all! just love them so much.

Nice Song.

NICKELBACK
"Far Away"

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

1st day of leave

nthing to do. boring! damn it. how i wish i nv clear leave. i shld have taken leave last time so i have lesser leave to clear.

boring day. bad day. sad day, sad day..

love

well don really have anything to post.
today just wake up, use comp, nap, use comp. fuking boring.
tml will be my official 1st leave!! im out of tat hell!

talk to someone abt some stuff. kinda feel sorry for her. from wat she said, the guy like don give a damn abt her. is she too lousy for him? or is he too damn gd for her.
well i don really know. i do feel sad for her. i think i also say something not nice to her. maybe i too str forward. sorry! come on! theres plenty of ppl outside! ya n be happy! y let this bother u all the time. it doesn't takes 2 to be happy. i do really hope to see her smile :) altho i nv see her be4 haha. watever~ hope i can finish downloading tv series asap n maybe send it to her. so she will spend more time on tat rather then bothering herself with many other things. o ya she got a very very bad cough. too bad i don live at paya lebar n i don know u ah. if not i will buy herbal tea for cough for u haha. poor thing. hope she recover soon.

sometimes i wonder wat love is. is it a need? is it a must? or just something we want to have to make sure they r alive? i don't know.

y m i always the one to make ppl happy n not the other way rd?

outing(s)

suppose to meet maha n rdy at 2pm. in the end all met at 2.40pm haha. when we reach WWW. they had eaten n all ready to leave for their nxt pt. bowling n movie or www. they separated into 2 grps n proceed to their pt. then ryzi follow us. we had our lunch at macdonald.. n we decided to play pool after tat. hahah. not in either grp of bowling or www. ya n tats all. pool n went home.

met lionel at 9.45pm which supposed to be 9pm! he late! our destination was phuture..
maha told us clarke quay is near then, so we drop there. when ask the staff for direction, he told us to take bus. WTF. maha u ass.. told me walking distance! in the end we took cab! $7.60! reach there n ITS FULL. DAMN IT. went to zouk instead. actually i don know the difference. ahhaa . its my first time there. so we just went zouk. after we paid for it, we went out. slack ard. then saw others of my team mates too. wow. many! we slack ard n had some beer.i only drank half can of the 500ml carlsberg n i could feel my blood rushing to my head. im a poor drinker tho ahha.
went into zouk after 30 mins. ya of cozs, started dancing.. i don know how to dance! hahaaha. n the music in zouk was like... mostly hand sign. ppl dance to the song.. n i mean handsign to the lyrics. many were fantastic! i feel like a new born kid inside. if full marks is 100. they all were 80 above! n i must be 20. ahhahah. my body macam freeze. lucky lionel was there. hes a gd dancer tho. so i tried to follow ard wat ppl do n try it. quite fun learning how to dance. im always 1 beat slower. well many things do happen inside. i shld not talk abt it, ppl tat go will know ba.

went out to have some breathe.. went to the nearest coffeshop n had soft drinks to quench my thirst. tired! dried up! n we went back to dance! omg the song was so nice! they do have ROCK SONGS. ahahha. 2 songs tat actually got me HIGH were BON JOVI - ITS MY LIFE n YMCA. ahaha. standard.. YMCA.. all do the handsign to the word YMCA. ITS MY LIFE. NICE. they jump ard n keep pting at me when the CHORUS came. haha damn funny. i don know how to react. wat shld i do? shld i challenge back? shld i keep quiet? shld i do something funny? hahah. well i nv jump. but when they pted me, i pt 2 thumb at myself. YA ITS ME. n i show the L . BIG L with both of my hand.. it was fun. rite. but i don think i will go often to this kind of place. don really like it. maybe a gathering with them once in awhile to tat place is ok. we went to phuture awhile after they allowed us to go in ard 3am. inside was like dirty? ppl dancing ard touching here n there. u grind me i grind u. don really like it. its a place i will nv bring my gf there.. unless she really wan to go. i will protect her like crazy. NOBODY COME NEAR US! haha. well tats if i had a gf. ya n went home at 4am. tired..

ya n her now. nv really get to talk to her. she went online just be4 i needed to go out. talk to her also no much reply. seems like i really m not important to her.. hahah. well, she don know i interested in her. she don even know me. haha tats the funny part. tats all. i will nv tell her! i only scare 1 day she knew abt it. i lost a fren to talk to. so let it be this way is the best. i just hope if she ever found out who she is. don treat me like stranger. thank u.

ya some last words. this blog i started to talk abt my personal life. will be long winded. rubbish all come out. so for ppl tat don really like can choose not to read it.

last day in C

Finally, i clearing my leave. finally im free from the politics n law~~.
Kinda happy n sad.. inside, everything is plan for u.. but now, i have to start planning my own future..

today i do radio. boring last day.. fuk up. i wanted do ground but they don wan to change. they say plan do already, don change.. troublesome. excuses la. inside do nth whole day. waste my last day. not memoriable at all. well, i plan my speech in there la. don waste time. so many thoughts to say n i finally pick 1. back to "home" when sir ask me to give a speech to them. my mind gone blank. i can't say anything. lucky its quite dim over there. i can feel my blood rushing to my head. my face must be damn red then.. no one can see it.. haha. my speech become a full length of spacebar. nothing came out at all. i just say sorry. cozs of my case making them suffer now? ya take care guys.

o ya jh n hf come to celebrate my release from hell. ahaha. jh order canadian pizza. haiwaiian n cheesy? i ate 2 slice. quite little for so many of us(alphaians). n they started SPLASHING water, throwing water bomb ard. all of us kana. FIGHT BACK. some use GRAPE n COKE to splash back. i splash a cup of grape at hf n miss! omg i must be a lousy aimer. all at the wall! ahha too bad. u guys got to clean it up.
some photos of our small family.






yeah n we r the background heroes of singapore.




ok back to the story of her. ya i didn't get to talk to her in msn today. she must be busy n tired. ya + im nothing to her. she got tat one in her mind. im just a item in a shop, shes a window shopping lady. just passing by. i, only hope to be bought.
i wonder now if i clear leave, will i be able to talk to her more often? or maybe i got more time to try stop thinking. yeah rite. well she don even know im interested in her. nv will i let her know. knowing where i stand, the place she wan the other part to stand its totally different. worlds apart. nvm. i will start to learn some chef stuff soon. hope she will be the first to taste it. ppl say food can buy a guy. but i don think food can buy a lady heart. maybe its time to light a cigarette hoping it will stop some sadness if possible. well its just life. life of misery.
ya hahaa. mich. if u ever move in to condo, can i be ur housemate? ahhah. suddenly thought of moving out. seeing many of my frens at overseas with roommates or housemate seems fun. don mind? just a request. hahaha.

mrt. i dare u to do the same

well these r the few pics we took. all kinda retards! hahha. well its still part of my precious memories. I KINDLY THANK U FOR NOT TAKING ANY OF THE PHOTOS.









YEAH WE R DRIVER OF MRT

memories.

finally im going to clear leave soon, very soon. still got 1 extra duty to serve. kinda feel like taking mc on tat day. today met naz wan n et. they offical ORD! seeing them sort of bring back memories.

still remember when we came to this unit together. our training. kana pumped together. especially when doing monkey bar n pull up! omg. i still remember tat!
i can't do 6 pull up! ya of cozs not only me. then sir ask us to hang on top for 2 mins. crazy. don even think he can do tat. ya we did try. i was the first to came down. haha. tried a few times, til my palm skin tore n bleed. all because of my sir fault during bmt! super slack for last 2 mths. tats y all the hard work i train all gone. ya by to this unit. we came to work on the first shift like a bunch of aliens. its a procedure to give newbies a tough day actually. but i did mobile. lucky my GL was very gd. i was the only one tat day tat don feel tired. slack huh. 2nd shift also must be remembered! i did with the most ON GL. hes a very weird guy or shld i say very discipline.he nv sit during rest time. only eat bread! crazy fellow. end of shift, i think im the most dried up lol. back to my intake. we been thru alot together i think? i always tell myself, no matter wat, same intake must always help each other. tats me. well i do talk bad abt my frens, but its no harm. i still help them if possible. i remember 1 incident tat i got backstab rite in my face! i lost my track shoes tat day. 1 guy told me thers a pair near some locker which below to some ORD personel. so i took it. nxt thing tat happen is, someone lost his shoes n he wore others shoes. tat guy %^@$&@$^ n the guy return his shoes. SIR ask "who take naz shoes?" n this guy reply "sir i know who take." pointing at me. well nvm. i quiet ba. just got the backstabbed feeling but well, hes telling the truth anyway.
remember hari raya tat time. muslims were fasting. i was doing radio. i nv eat until
7pm! omg. fasting with them. my partner was a muslim tat day. just too bad la. can;t possible i eat he see rite. tats kinda bad. so we wait until sir buy food for us.
sirs send a few teams to my location for their meal. i thought maybe 1 team. then i heard alot coming. omg lucky tat place is big enough for them. if its at the other place then i think all stand n eat ba. well this is the pic of those tat came. quite fun. well these r the ppl tat came. heart warming family huh. hhaah










so many memories flashing thru my mind now but if i need to post all, i think it will be more than 100000 words. so i will keep it this way. ya btw the guy backstabbed me same intake as me.



well this unit is currently changing. growing up. many things changed since i came in. 14 hrs shift to 8 hrs shift. 1 working day n 2 off days became 4 working days n 2 off days. stupid. tiring. stressful. waste money on transport. time. for finding gf tho hahaha. will post other memories nxt time.. maybe..

nice song.

this is super nice canto song.

吴奇隆 - 你不识爱我

是你看透我爱你
对我爱理偏不理
偶尔亲匿 忽尔别离
没有你我会放弃
有你一生的福气
冥冥之中 只深爱你
不过 你不识爱我
并未欣赏我 为你牺牲最多
是我的错 太高估了我
尚未猜得破 是你心事如何
是你看透我爱你
对我爱理偏不理
在戏里有我有你
很想演一出好戏
怪我当初 想得太美
不过 你不识爱我
并未珍惜我
但你一直心里最清楚
是我很傻 错都一再错
就是喜欢你 绝对不想错过

Fish n Co Glasshouse

yeah this will be my first blog post!
don think anyone will see my blog hoho.
counted my leave yesterday, i actually got
17 leave including EDO. after this cycle i most
prob left 1 day. but my DTL gave me edo for it.
haha wat a nice DTL. i think he just hope
ifaster get out of the team. less trouble.
doesn't matter anyway.

yeah told my frens abt my days left in unit.
i called jhaze abt my last day. i think he is planning
something, hope its not a haze! n he jio us out to eat.
we were planning where to eat in base. randy n i talk to
jh in phone for 40 mins? talking abt where! fuk.
waste my battery. i wanted to go ***** hoping i can see
someone i like. but they don wan! fuk it. randy live in clementi,
jh in yishun, kong ta telok blangah tho. don blame them.
but i really wan to go ***** hoping to see her if im lucky.
but we ended up at fish n co glasshouse. watever!

yeah met jh at DBG SMRT PSC. yeah we saw our unit ppl patrolling.
fuk. 1 is folding arms! tat is not allowed! wanted to take
photos of him n send to his tl. but nvm la. don kill him.
reach fish n co! we seat at somewhere near entrance.
something happen. fuk. we weere thinking wat to eat and
on top got ppl singing song for birthday. after awhile. SOMETHING DROp.
Fuking hell. a Glass DROP. Glass for drinks! it landed on the floor shattering the glass ard. some hit my pants n my shoes. i can feel it tho. but lucky nv cut me.
the table beside us still can laugh. she must be crazy.
too lucky tat it nv hit her. imagine it hit her head. i think
the shop close down nxt day for renovation. too dangerous.
one guy came out to apologise n say "its on me". i think
hes the incharge. after 30mins or so.. something drop again.
this time a fork. fuk! it landed on the chair. LUCKY the table had left.
if not this will be a jackpot! YA! AMIR N AARON came to meet us.
tats alpha huh. true spirit.

we left fish n co n went to DBG Xchange cozs aaron collecting his
cake for mother's day. swt huh. crap damn long at the place
cozs we had to wait for the ppl to prepare the cake.
he spent ard $60. omg.. they suggested go somewhere to slack.
timber. a bar i suppose. but i don feel like going.
i feel moody so we nv go. we take some photo outside
we each go our separate ways home. come to think of it today..
i kinda regret. i shld have just go with them to timber n chill out.
since i can't see them often le. how stupid m i. i thought i moody coz can't
go *****. but i think the reason is i sick ba.

reach home. house is quiet. no one home. bro outside. mum genting.
kinda lonely feeling. on my comp, saw her online.. wanted to chat with her.
but shes busy i think. so i don bother her much. all her reply is short but not swt.
saded. feel worse. feel bored n "sick", i went to mich blog be4 i slp. posted
some rubbish haha. its to "quiet" there. ok enough of nonsense. shall cont wat happen in during work later ba. for now, tats it.

these r some photos.